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Ahkihoun
Just trying to be better than I was in 2012.

Age 33, Female

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I'm a little lost.

Posted by Ahkihoun - November 9th, 2013


This has been a reoccurring thought for me for the past couple years; and its a concept that I've struggled with as an artist. Nothing deep mind you; just petty young adult kind of things.

Photoshop is like a bro to me. Paint tool Sai is like a cousin; I love working with digital palettes. And I've found as I've begun to review art here on Newgrounds, that I've become drawn to many different styles. While this bodes well for inspiration, it confuses me as well. I figure, if I like these styles I should take what I like from them (which is usually pretty much everything about it.) and learn how to do it, and put it into my own art. And then it leads me to the question of;

1. What is my style?
2.Do I have a style?
3. How do I identify with that style and make it more "me"?

I guess it was naive of me to think that art wouldn't become an extension of my personality; and now that I see it that way, I'm becoming more frightened and anxious about where I'm going in the future with my work. I know I have the capacity to learn just about whatever I want. (well, anything that doesn't involve math at least. haha)

The final and other issue is that while I start many projects, very few become finished. ( Probably another reason why I have several style dissonances in my gallery) I don't know why this is. And everytime I start a new project, it seems my skill jumps a couple levels, without any practice seemingly. It makes me shudder at where I COULD be by now if I had actually practiced my trade more often and finished some work.

There's a New Year coming though. And I want to be ready for it. I want to finish this current piece before January 1st. I don't know why. I guess maybe as a sign or token that I achieved something. I'm hoping it'll be an inspiration enough to keep at it, and continue finishing projects all throughout 2014.

Until then.

Dem Feathers.

I'm a little lost.


Comments

Quite an introspective, honest and illuminating post! Do you need a style? Of all the things that have ever been, they all have a unique style... an artist renders an image, based on perspective, mood... we all have different interpretations of the same thing, and that can change day-to-day, and over the course of a lifetime.

Actually, having no set style makes you a better artist, more flexible and with different perspectives :)